†[ Dietrich von Lohengrin] + [ Far more sinister than the price of doubt ]†

I cant believe this shit, its been days and my plans have no yet worked. Why is he not making a move? Why is she not come yet? This is not how these things are meant to work out! My annoyances are getting higher and I find myself simply waiting for the time I spend with Shiba without him I am an empty shell of boredom. With the lose of Isaak and the dimming of my Star I wonder what is really left here of my past dealings?

My sibling they don't even speak to me. I haven't seen or spoke to Schuldig since the dating game and Nami in months, I miss my sister and brother and the life I had.

Going to AA with Goyjo just for the laughs Seeing Goyjo...whose cut me off for his teacher....I miss my friend man. Just cause his teacher doesn’t like me I don’t get to see him...I’m going to play Halo and miss Jezebel now too...

................fuck I cant even call Honda....she's pissed at me too........I have to wait for Shiba time....I’ll play the Godfather game instead....

Dietrich Von Lohengrin

My birthday's vastly getting near and I don't like that...I dont want to get old...At worst the heats out at my apartment so I have no choice but stay with Isaak. AND I haven't even told HIM yet...hi father.

To make this wonderful news better, I think I'm getting sick on top of it all...just fucking brilliant. I miss my star...

Oh man this last weeks been so bizarre, first spending time with the devil, its always fun to dance with the devil in the pale moonlight! Not that we did but it on my list of things to do! Yes brother dearest I have made a list! I did enjoy our time together, please do let me know if I can be of service to you any time. What I did for you is one of my passions, the fact I could do so and help you at the same time was great! Just give me a call man, I’m always at home or work or last chance if I‘m not at once of the two I‘m possible out with Goyjo at the bar or the church with Esther. On a rare moon I’m over at Beloved’s playing videogames.

Then seeing Nami and her boob-cat Batman, I’ve never seen Beloved handle another cat so well…what the hell man my evil cat was purring and being friendly! Anyway so after Chinese food I showed her how to play Fable then her teaching me to eat with chop sticks, I’ve always wanted to learn I just never much in a point in it. But I’ve gotten quiet attached to these visits from Nami, her German lesions and then just spending time with someone who seems to really give a damn about what I have to say.

Beloved isn’t talking to me right now, its so sad. I wonder what I did to make him cross, oh well though. I have a moody Beloved to deal with in my apartment, she has found that she likes clawing up the side of my bed…not cool. I wonder why she acts out like this. I’m sure there’s gotta be someone who knows more about Cat’s than I do. Maybe Gunzi.

I wonder if he dropped dead, I haven’t seen him in a few weeks, I’m kind of worried. Maybe the blind man put his cane through Gunzi’s eyes as revenge for leaving him alone to visit me? I wouldn’t put it past Goyjo’s teacher to do that to him if he ever found out we were going to be hanging out…that mans so scary… I feel like the worlds got some kind of animosity towards me! All my friends have restrictions by God, lover, teacher or robo! It sucks, I spend most of my time alone.

I’ve been cracking open my theology books again! I already have a degree in it so why did I just sign up for another theology class next semester! And I know I have to go visit Yuuko before she shows up here…Damn I’m going to have to clean this place up. That woman’s not come around since she broke that murderer out of jail so my place looks like shit man… I really hate doing woman work. cleaning.

Oh yeah about the theology books, I’ve been going to church weekly by Krad’s demand and I have started noticing the contradictions again, God It makes me want to call home and talk to the old man and let him go on a rant again. Kind of miss him already. Anyway! Off topic again So I started wondering certain questions again and decided to look into them and try ignoring the contradictions, I am trying to honestly open my mind to Esther’s relgion…Master would kill me on sight if he knew…no worries I cant even take it seriously much less really do it. Anyway, I should likely try and take Esther out sometime this week for canceling that dinner with Schuldich and his robo.

Yeah I think I’m done ranting for now.

-Dietrich von Lohengrin

First off

HAPPY HALLOWEEN

Did you miss me Cross? I know I am late but I am home and feeling much better with all that drama out of the way! And just in time for All Hollows Eve, It seems Goyjo is not available so I have to go find a new costume it would be no fun to be Bartelby without Loki, unless my older brother would like to be my Loki! Otherwise I do believe I have have an idea! &l3

Cat-Skin, as I'm back I will be taking my hours back. Thanks even if you did it for Krad, I do thank you for covering my hours. If you ever need anything I will be willing to help if you want it.

( Private to Nami )

Esther! Do you want to go to Tamaki's party with me if I havent already missed it? I'm sure we can find you a beautiful angels custome before the party!

Tamaki, again if I haven't missed it. Count me in.

Starbucks is the BEST place on earth!

-Dietrich

I had a tarot reading done by Hitomi, I cant say I didn't expect the results I got when asking such fickle things but, the conversation was nice afterwards its nice to be able to open up now and then without having to kill afterwards. Hitomi would make a better therapist than Tohru any day of the week. Thank you Hitomi, for everything.


Ahh such a sad thing it is I spent today completely alone after I finished working, Played God of War II again, still disappointed that he doesn't say 'TONIGHT WE DINE IN HELL' but I can deal, I really should throw out the bootleg I have of 300 and just go buy it already. Esther's still not allowed to see it.

I still cant believe its finally official, its still a shock and it was so sweet to hear, I must be a fiend because as fast as she said it I want to hear it again. Even if the stars say its doomed.

Goyjo, I got you something. Come and get it tonight or tomorrow, but call first. It will be worth the gimping.

-Dietrich von Lohengrin

....god damn I'm bored.

Well I have decided its time to put myself on a Schedule with classes coming soon and the fact I am already piled down with things to do.I will be quitting two of my jobs as soon as classes start, but for now I need them to make ends met until my finances come through but for now this is what I have to do. The dorm just was getting to small and I had issues with being there after a certain point in time.

Yesterday I woke up later than I expected, I always sleep so calm when I am around you dearest. Alas I had to rush out and go to meet Ritsuka Aoyagi for lunch as I had manners of business to speak with him. Next time we met how about we met at the park? Maybe I can show you pictures of beloved. My dear cat, I'm sure you would love it.
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-Dietrich von Lohengrin

( PRIVATE to Esther )

Your Personality Profile

You are happy, driven, and status conscious. You want everyone to know how successful you are. Very logical, you see life as a game of strategy. A bit of a loner, you prefer to depend on yourself. You always keep your cool and your composure. You are a born leader and business person.

I spent a good part of my night I spent sitting with Goyjo and Juri playing "I Never' great game to play when your not aiming to get pissed. So anyway after much stumbling and many rounds I found myself lost on the way home ran into Gunzi. Its great to have Gunzi back in my life he helped me home and stayed the night. Though I wonder why is everyone one so freaked out when they learn my age?

( Private to Gunzi )
Tamaki, Hitomi and Miss Nami: I apologize for my behavior last night I was in a fowl mood, I did forget to mention that to you two I can be quiet temperamental some days if i run hot and cold on you just ignore it. and to Miss Nami I am sorry for my rudeness.

-Dietrich von Lohengrin

( Private to Esther )

once again dearest brother, I have slept though our meeting. My X-box Obession is back in full swing since My Laptop was destoryed, I have been playing Halo with a few friends none stop.

And Beloved Sparta keeps trying to keep me away. AS Beloved is getting bigger he strikes me as a Sparta, so we shall dine in hell tonight Indeed...damnit I should have never downlaoded 300....I feel so tiny now....


Esther...do I messure up to other men? I knew I am small built but, You have seen me without my shirt...how do I compare to the priests? I have set this entry so no one but me can see how you answer so no need to be shy.

-Dietrich

Guten tag,

First off as to my whereabouts the past week are no ones concern but my own. Only my brother, The devil My beloved, the Angel Esther, The Dr. Faust and Dr. Mana and Tohru are permitted to know the details of my being gone I would like it if no one else pried into this issue, the fact that information leaked this much already has me upset enough plus I don't want Esther knowing what really happened.

Schuldich, I finally got a real prescription filled and I will be responsible and not let myself get worse I am under the wonderful care of Miss Esther, and I know her angelic powers will heal me up nice and better before the wedding, or I will resort to caking on foundation and wearing make up.

Half-Blood, please give me a call later if you would I really need to speak to you. If you do not have the number simply leave a comment and I will give it to you. I need to know what kind of dress I need to buy for Esther for your wedding, Unless you are buying them that is...I really am new to weddings.

Beloved, when everything is settled in my dorm I will return to the digital world and reclaim my place as your fighter. What was said last night was out of line but I do not expect an apology nor at the same time will I apologize either. Lets just move on and go on like these events have not happened, that is how I would like to handle this, when I feel up to it i would like to take you out to lunch.

Dr. Faust thank you very much for your kindness, I wish you the best of luck with returning to medicine I would return to Cross Hospital that that I wish to but if i did I would if not for you than definitely Dr. Mana, the robot you threatened on me was frightening though... why the hell is that thing in a hospital?

On another note I seems like I can no longer see though my hair, so I'll look into getting it cut in a few days, I cant let it get very long it becomes a hassle to take care of and I just don't want to put forth that effort to deal with it I needed the shower i had today my hair was screaming for the shampoo i like, it back to sparkling perfection bouncy and full of life again, I really though it was dead from my hospital stay

and mien herr...this hoodie is killing me....its fucking cloudy but still feels like a sauna, but I have gathered up the things I need for my short stay with miss Esther until this place is except able to be in again...but for now I am returning to the church. I have my cell the charger too for those of you who like to talk Tohru

By the way miss Tohru, you never met me as you wanted, whats the deal with that? and you also didn't keep your end of the bargain. so Call me when you get a chance and don't be too late I will be on day-walker hours while in the care of miss Esther.

-Dietrich von Lohengrin

Im a bad bad man. <3~ If you be needing to find Esther Blanchette, just keep yourselves calm she will return before the 30th, I promise you this.

Im skipping my first week of classes, Im not to worried about in truth, my classes are all easy in my mind adn with teachers I know and know what I am doing, or know of my needs.


Dearest Older Brother, and Milady, I am in Flordia with Esther, I will return soon. I hope you wont miss me too much.

Miss Tohru; thank you for the late night call. we must set up a new apointment, you amuse me so.

Gunzi, please make sure Beloved is looked after, I will be back soon as I can, you may call my cell if you need me.

-Dietrich